今天，第一次给学生考试..... 带着试卷提前10分钟到了教室，学生在下面小声说话，我在讲台上故作镇静的看书，其实还满紧张的。不出我所料，考试时又有各种各样的问题出现。

 

一直很想知道学生对试卷难易的反应。开考15分钟，那个总能回答最难的课堂提问的女生拿着试卷上来了。我以为她是来提问，结果是来交卷的。一翻，全对。看着她轻轻松松安安静静地走出考场，不知道为什么竟然有一丝羡慕——这是比我小10岁的孩子，我多么希望能够回到那样的年纪，每天来上自己拿手的课，上课来，下课去，或许，男朋友就在走道那头等着她..... 过去的青春有很多很多的遗憾。曾经，太倔强，太偏执，太闭塞，太盲目。如果能重新开始大学生活该多好！

 

30分钟的时候，有五六个人交卷了。40分钟的时候，有一半的人交卷了。只有2分钟了，那个总是坐在教室最前排，笔记抄得最整齐最全面的女生终于停下奋笔疾书来交卷了。她怎么会花了这么久？原来最后一道证明题开始给卡住了。还好，最后的证明是对的.....

 

常常，提醒自己教书只是扁担的一头，那一头更重的是科研。可是，我总是忍不住花很多的时间去备课，总是忍不住投入大把大把的热情在里头......

人生本来是一系列美好无比的享受，可是真正享受到这些乐趣者又能有几人呢？由于无视一些基本原则，那么多人的生命都白白浪费了。就像那些抢着请客的人，花掉的冤枉钱不比任何人少，得到的快乐不比任何人多，辛苦一场，劳民伤财，最后经常连坐出租车的钱都没有，只好饿着肚子步行回家，去泡方便面！

人 生 如 吃 饭 （转载自某城，笑脸上贴的人生哲理系列155）

　　马克去向一位智者请教一些关于人生的问题。

　　智者告诉马克："人生其实很简单，就跟吃饭一样，把吃饭的问题搞明白了，也就把所有的问题都搞明白了。"

　　马克一时没有转过弯儿："人生像吃饭这么简单？"

　　智者不紧不慢地说："就这么简单，只不过用嘴吃饭人人都无师自通，用心吃饭则有一定难度，即使名师指点也未必有几个能学得会。

　　"聪明者为自己吃饭，愚昧者为别人吃饭；聪明者把吃饭当吃饭，愚昧者把吃饭当表演；聪明者在外面吃饭时喜欢AA制，愚昧者却喜欢呼朋唤友抢着付账；聪明者吃饭既不点得太多，也不点得太少，他知道适可而止，能吃多少，就点多少，他能估计来自己的肚子；愚昧者则贪多求全、拼命点菜，什么菜贵点什么，什么菜怪点什么，等菜端上来时又忙着给人夹菜，自己却刚动几筷子就放下了。

　　"他们要么就是高估了自己的胃口，要么就是为了给别人做个'吃相文雅'的姿态；聪明者付账时心安理得，只掏自己的一份；愚昧者结账时心惊肉跳，明明账单上的数字让他心里割肉般疼痛，却还装出面不改色心不跳的英雄气概，宛然他是大家的衣食父母似的；聪明者只为吃饭而来，没有别的动机，他既不想讨好谁，也不会得罪谁；愚昧者却思虑重重，又想拼酒量，又想交朋友，又想拉业务，他本来想获得众人的艳羡，最后却南辕北辙、弄巧成拙，不是招致别人的耻笑，就是引来别人的利用。吃饭本是一种享受，但是到了他这里，却成为一种酷刑。

　　"吃饭跟人生何其相似！人生在世，光怪陆离的东西实在太多，谁也无法说出哪些是好的，哪些是不好的，哪些值得追求，哪些不值得追求，哪种模式算是成功，哪种模式算是失败，唯一能说明白的也许只有三点：第一，自己的事情自己承担，不要麻烦任何人为你代劳，也不要抢着为任何人代劳；第二，要多照顾自己的情绪，少顾忌他人的眼色，太多顾忌别人，把自己弄得像个演员似的，实在是一件出力不讨好的事情；第三，凡事最好量需而行、量力而行，不要订太高的目标。就像吃饭，你有多大胃口、你有多少钱，就点多少菜，千万不要贪多求全。"
 

This evening I finally managed to open the wine I got from the farmer's market 3 weeks ago. Even openning the bottle wasn't easy -- I tried to follow the instructions given on the label of the wine opener, but couldn't. Then I googled "how to open a wine bottle" on the web, and watched a short video of illustration. Actually, I replayed that video three times and tried on my bottle each time, before finally extracting the cock out of the bottle.

 

Since it was such a hard experience, I decided that I deserved some award -- therefore, I filled a small glass with the wine. I thought that it was not a big deal. The gentleman who selled the wine to me told me that this type of wine was just for fun -- it is the mild type. But it turned out that I got dizzy after drinking the small glass of wine.

 

But I am enjoying the feeling -- I haven't had any type of alcohol for almost 5 years. I haven't been feeling this kind of dizziness for such a long time. During all this long period, I have been working so hard. I still remember the conversation we had in that Chinese buffet restaurant 4 years ago, right before I decided to make the transfer. I still remember what my friend said -- it might take me 5 years or even 10 years to catch up. But finally, I will be there. 4 years have past. I am still not there. But at least I know that I have the chance to catch up. In these 4 years, I tried to avoid as much entertainment activity as I can. The reason is that I didn't have much time to waste. The only time that I can save is the time on entertainment, including the time to spend at a bar.

 

Here it is, a bottle of wine. I have to finish it, by myself. It feels so good to be a little bit drunk.

It has been almost three months since I closed my blog. The main reason is that I have been feeling bad during this period. Even writing an artical on my blog became an exhausting activity for me.

 

The day before yesterday, I started to practice Yoga at a nearby fitness center. I felt so good after two practices. It brings me a new hope that I will finally recover.

 

So, maybe I can restart writing my blog ...